Since the time I attended Art Of Living’s Basic Course, it has been my routine to start the day with Sudarshan Kriya. However, I must confess that even after lapse of considerable time, my mind tends to waver hither and thither whenever I sit down to meditate. The past haunts, the present beckons and the future makes me worry. In the beginning, I used to feel guilty. Meditation meant an internal tussle to concentrate on the ‘now’ while my restless mind kept on playing tricks with me. With time, I have become more indulgent with my thoughts during meditation and let them pass by like sauntering clouds on a clear summer day.
Last weekend I attended a Book Fair which brought back memories of the past. How my father used to shove in story books under my pillow in the middle of the night on Christmas Eve. The next morning, as I would bounce with joy discovering my new found treasure, he would smile and tell me that it was a gift from Santa Claus for being a good girl.
As I said earlier our mind plays tricks. These happy moments from the past, once aroused, must have settled heavily in my subconscious. Next morning, when I sat down for Kriya, my mind ditched me, as usual, and we went surfing down memory lane.
I was back again to my childhood days playing with bright, colourful toys, reading books and comics, dancing in the back yard, running after my mother, singing myself hoarse and shunning studies in general. Needless to say such reminiscences are always pleasurefull. I was transported to those olden times long gone by and could feel every emotion associated with those moments, smell every fragrance, listen to all the pleasant voices of yore as though I had a Time Turner wound in my hand which had taken me backwards in time.
Alas! When I returned to the present my Kriya was almost over. Surprisingly, I felt as though I had come back home after a long journey. It was time to get ready for the next daily chore. However, as I prepared to work out of inertia, an electrifying revelation dawned on me. During Kriya my mind had traveled distances, leading me along, where I could not have possibly traveled physically. The second realization that dashed in next was while I was time traveling there were two layers of action going along simultaneously at the mental front – at one level a part of the mind continued with the daily ritual of the Kriya in the present now and at another level the other part happily took off for a whirlwind trip to the past.
The experience made me marvel at the unexplored potentials of the mind which we seldom utilize consciously in our wakeful moments and the natural corollary that, once harnessed constructively, this ability of the mind to multi task ( or should I say travel?) can easily elicit stupendous results. Arguably, it also indicated that if mind could travel backwards it could also do so in forward motion. Couldn’t it?
With all these awe-inspiring thoughts, I also acknowledged shamefacedly, that I had to work harder still to achieve a few moments of meaningful meditation when mind would be still, restful and very much in control of the present.
Thoughts to ponder upon….